Fresh Positive Smile

Its been awhile since i last blog.....managed to get back to this blog.....gone through all the past blogs..seems to be sad ones....hence will start again will a fresh mind, positive attitude and smile all the way .....(its not easy at times yet will try to endure all obstacles:)

Work... Currently in a new work environment. Really smthg new n exciting kinda environment..it suits young ppl like me :) Still early comment on the job functions....will update on this soon...

Family.. Everythg and everyone is fine..Been spending time with dad whenever i can...Sometimes i need time for myself...he'll leave me alone...he's such a wonderful and understanding dad...knowing his daughter is so secretive...

Love...ERmm..will always keep positive mind and being appreciative on what ever happened...will be patience, calm and think bout hapinness and not troubles.....so, so far so gd :)

Friends...There are some new ones and some left, will try to spend some time with my lovely friends if i've the time...Thinking about it , it has been for more than 6mths that i didnt really hang out with group of frens...mayb i'm busy or mayb everyone is busy...anyway...will try to keep intouch from time to time...ya:)  and this proves, i'm such a homely dull gal....(shall improvise on such lifestlye then..)

Year end is coming.....not sure if i've achieve all my resolution...will try to recall....

and will start thinking how 2009 will be a much more fruitful yr for me!

Confused?

As the old proverb says,

If you love someone, set him free; if he's yours to keep, he'll come back to you.

Missing someone that I myself would not believe.....the feeling was so strong that I was unsure of what to do or think...

Even worst to know that there are other ppl who miss us.....

Shall keep it to myself, as I believe, the best answer to all this will eventually answered one day!

*Hate those unwanted calls, but wish to receive one from the one we miss..

Say it...before it's too late...

Was back after an exciting meeting....felt more confidence, I know I can do it.....and as time pass by, I shall improve myself for the better of my own too..:)

It was sometime that I really sat down to watch a show. A slot of a programme, a Malay programme(Ku Mohon) was aired. What captured my attention was a story of a family who lost a beloved member of theirs. It was a true & touching story. How a twin sis had to let go her the other half, how a family had to accept the lost of their daughter, how her husband would able to only look at her photo only, for the past 6yrs, & how Her dear fren who was with her during the accident, would able to get the courage to drive back to the inccident place...

Further to this story, the background music, really captured myself, without realising tears rolled down...

Terlalu Istimewa

Ku tak tergambar wajahmu
Sinar mata itu
Lirik senyumanmu
Pesona yang membelai
Wajahmu bercahaya
Memberi bahagia
Tiap yang memandang
Hati jadi salju

(Korus)
Kau terlalu istimewa
Kasih dan sayangmu terpancar
Seikhlas tiada batasan
Terus membara
Terkilan rasa jiwa
Ingin ku lihat mu dewasa
Apa daya
Tuhan lebih menyayangimu

Ku pasti kau berbahagia
Duduk di sampingnya
Mendengar cerita
Sekadar rahsia

Tak tertanggung rindu…
Mendengar suaramu…
Tawa mengusik jiwa…
Oh…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZB_3XOVv6-U&mode=related&search=

Just sat down, repeatedly, listen to the music over and over again..as tears rolled uninvited......what was on my mind then......lots of things...

Imagining myself with a group of homeless kids......sharing, laughing, crying  with our personal stories...how wonderful to be cared & loved but it is not easy for everyone to do so. I always remember this....tell the people around you....that you care & love them....regardless if they are your father, mother, siblings, uncles,aunties, neighbours, and what most if not our friends. Believe it or not, we spend lots of time with our friends, sharing our secrets with them.....because we trust them....so there's nothng wrong of expressing that you love her/him....as a friend......Come on, at this modern century.....we dont say "I Love You" only to our partners...but to the rest of the people who also help to shape who we are today. However, to avoid misunderstdg for certain situation, we can also express it , but in a proper tone/manner......We are like any ordinary humans who wants to be cared & loved.......Say to them that you care/love them before it is to late....Do not regret then.

Lets talk about the Tuesday shopping first. Fetched Sherrie & Liz and headed to Bangsar. Went at the wrong time, as it was lunch time, so difficult to find parking, but at last we got one. Had lunch in Shanghai 10. It was rizzling the whole day, but this 3 charlie angels, walked with pride under the rain...  After the lunch, the bell rings, to tell us that it's shopping time. All in all we went into 6 boutiques along the telawi street...... And the winner goes to liz, with 6 blouse, while Sherrie & myself bought only a blouse for each of us. It was actually nice shopping with them, as it has been sometime that I last bought smthg for myself. We left bangsar at 4:30, to get away from the traffic.

Next we headed to One U. Had our wedges, chocolate/strawberry shakes & superb yummy chocolate cake with ice-cream topping, in Ms Read. We were so full that we decided to pack the wedges back. Sherrie even wanted to get her drink packed, but they said, they do not have any container to pack away the drink...heheheheh...

Since we were so full, we decided to head to the bowling rally....We played a match only....These charlie angels are not great bowlers....Liz scored 96, Myself 81 & Sherrie 56.....(Need to bowl more often erdi, so lousy)... but it's fun obviously.... Thats all we did for a day off from work.....

Yesterday, my load job was so much that I hardly speak to anyone. But today, I felt my desk was so clean..... Why le, guess I'm doing too fast erdi,sumore evryday also stay back late.....Thinking what else can I do besides my current job......

Lately, been missing so many ppl, dunno why.....missing bla bla bla, missing bla bla bla....yo..miss here n miss there....dunno got ppl miss me or not.......No! Cannot think like that, must miss ppl sincerely, whole heartedly...ehehhehehe... so cannot think of the return....

Love II

To be continued...

Saw the whole scene right before my eyes. Whatever it is, I will always support for the one who I think is at the right position. Mistakes have been done, if only xxxx would want to admit xxxx mistakes and return to us as before, we will forgive xxxx.

Spend the whole Sun with my beloved nephew, Jay. Just sat down and looked at him, enjoying playing with his toys and watching the cartoons. Deep inside me, felt pity and wonder, why a young child has to go through the same thg as mine. I promised that no matter what happen, I will always love and care for him. I want him to be with us. As he slept soundly, i whispered to him..." Che che will always love you, and what ever consequences, I will make sure you, my baby, will be with us." Till now, I missed him, and wanted to protect him so much. I know, God witness everythg, and will be fair to those who really deserve it. Pls God, pls protect my dearest unlce, my respected koko, n my beloved baby, with great patience and good health, to strive thru this tough moments.

As mention by my fren, it's true, such experienced has moulded me into a tougher person. Life still has to go on....make the best of it. So....tmrw.took a day off. Going out wit my 2 other colleagues. Planing to go to bangsar & OneU...or other places??? Hope it will be a great outing wit u guys..